I like you and you like me too; none of us can hide it. I don’t know much about you and neither do you know much about me. We just flirting and dreaming, about each other, together maybe? But then we get to that point where I ask, what are we?


I thought I knew what my purpose was. I mean, I got big dreams. I even started pursuing it on such a high note, but then things seem to have gotten to a plateau. Same old stuff I’ve been sharing. What does the future hold for my purpose? Who will I become? Is there more to where I am? What’s next? Or did I get my purpose wrong?


I am working out and my body is ‘just there’. I don’t feel the need for a massive transformation nor do I feel like I’m in my ideal body. I’m just there, trynna stay healthy, get that heart beating and fine tune some areas. No particular goal ahead. I’m in a,


 Have you ever been there? In the middle stage of something? A grey area?

I mean, that season where the initial excitement , energy and even motivation is gone? It kinda feels like a plateau. Maybe in school, your career, faith or generally your life journey? Or maybe it’s in your business or pursuing your purpose. The end goal isn’t clear. You can’t seem to visualize what the next few days, months or years are gonna look like. You’re just living, waiting to see what tomorrow has to offer. You may be calm or like most people, stressing and wish you just knew what the future holds!

I wish I knew where my career was headed. I wish I knew if focusing and giving my best to this blog will have a bearing on my future. You know that deep assurance that I’m doing the right thing and not wasting my time. But unfortunately I don’t: which is kind of annoying and exciting at the same time. On the brighter side, It keeps me operating in faith, trusting in the process and knowing that, even if the future turns out different from what I’m doing now, I’ll be grateful I gave my best, now, in this grey area.

I believe seasons of waiting are grey areas. And they’re pretty uncomfortable, right? Especially if you are the kind of person who likes to plan things out. Sometimes we can. But in most grey areas, we can’t. We just let things unfold. As annoying as it may feel, things are out of our control.

Maybe one day we’ll get a clearer revelation about our purpose and the next step to take.

That aha moment will come one day about what we should really dedicate the rest of our lives to.

I wish I could tell you what the future holds for you: how things will unfold. But I can’t.  All I can tell you is to embrace the confusion. The grey areas. Knowing that, you may not know how it’ll all unfold, but, time will tell. Each moment and season in life is precious, and as they say, nothing we do or go through in life goes to waste.

So maybe stop obsessing and stressing so much about the future and be present. Give the best to what’s in your hands now, and let God guide you into the future. It’s okay to have big dreams and plans, but sometimes, it’s okay to just relax and let life unfold.

I’ll leave with these words by Morgan Harper Nichols(Check her out on Instagram!):

The future will arrive,

 when it’s time for it to arrive

and you do not have to exhaust yourself

trying to figure out how you will get there.


Stacio · May 16, 2019 at 10:00 am

I totally agree… Life lies in a grey area…this is enlightening to me especially since we are at an age where we’re yet to figure our lives out. Lovely piece😄

    Jules · May 16, 2019 at 10:10 am

    Very true, especially when there’s pressure to have it all figured out. Glad you could relate and thank you 😊

Ndungu · May 16, 2019 at 3:09 pm

Grey, afor, blurry, uncertainty, risk, I want to know! No? Embrace the present, the idea of “die hard for the present” and EXHAUST! as if your soul is demanded afterwards.The Present; culminates to Vocation. After all, tomorrow who lives?
Jules, am inspired.
Great piece.

    Jules · May 20, 2019 at 6:22 am

    i’m glad that you are Ndungu and thanks for your kind and poetic words!

Sheila · June 4, 2019 at 1:01 pm

I never knew how much that hit home till I read it twice. Learning to embrace the grey areas.

    Jules · June 4, 2019 at 1:51 pm

    Yes please do and be at peace knowing that you’ll get where you are meant to be when you’re meant to be there

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